“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” 
Buddha
Since before I could possibly understand, I have felt the pull of what some may call, the dark side. An entity with in myself, set on forsaking the good in me for the bad.
I cannot remember when this battle began, it has been raging so long. The battle within me, between what is good, just and right, and that which is dark, cold and evil. Not that I have any actual desire to be evil, I doubt anyone does. However, I often feel my thoughts drawn to dark and dastardly things which I, myself, find repulsive.
So I seek to destroy these torturous thoughts, and conquer my inner demons. Because as Buddha said, "We are shaped by our thoughts."
I am religious, I pray for forgiveness and strength on a nightly basis. I pray for the courage to truly repent and the determination to follow a righteous path. I will never throw religion in ones face, or try to jam it down your throat. I feel God gave us freedom of choice and it is our God given right to implement that, whether or not that person knows it.
To say the least, my child hood was not an easy one. I will not pretend that mine was worse than anyone else's, for I know not their story. Nor would anything anyone could tell me take away from what I have experienced either.
As a form of self therapy, I have created this blog. It is mostly intended for my own benefit, but if anything I say helps you, I am glad for it. I will still welcome "followers", friends, visitors, and comments.
Sincerely,
Ms. Stakemaker
